Never Look Back, Never Give Up

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School’s Out.

I’ve finally finished college. I feel like I’ve been waiting forever to say that, but at the same time, it hasn’t quite sunk in yet. I wasn’t sure if I was going to write this originally, but as much as I want to post “valuable” content on here, my blog is also my way of documenting the things that happen in my life, and this is a pretty big deal.

I’ve spent the last two years studying for an HND in Advertising and Public Relations, a qualification which I wanted in order to go on to study for my bachelors degree in Marketing. On Friday, I found out that I’m graduating from my course with straight A’s, and I couldn’t be happier about it.

My further education journey so far has been a bit bumpy. I left school with four highers and decided to head on up to Aberdeen to study Fashion Management at Robert Gordon. I hated that course a lot, and I hated the city even more. It wasn’t the right place for me, but I tried to make it through, before dropping out after a tough two years.

Dropping out of university was a tough decision to make. I was struck with the fear of disappointing people I loved, and after spending years having university drilled into my brain as being the only option to succeed in life I was terrified that I was setting myself up for failure. I wish I’d realised sooner that this wasn’t the case. There are so many routes to “success”.

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Finishing college means a lot to me. In all honesty, I’ve been feeling kind of stuck for the last few years. I dropped out of university at the end of my second year and had naively thought I could just pick up where I left off and go straight into third year. It wasn’t the case, so I took a year off, then started my journey again from the beginning. Now that I’ve finished my HND I can finally move forward, instead of repeating the same two years of education again. It feels like I’ve actually taken a step forward in my education as opposed to heading back to the beginning.
During this time I’ve watched the people around me graduate and take the next step in their careers, some have moved abroad and some have started brilliant jobs here at home. Meanwhile, I’ve been trucking on through the education system and waiting for the day that my own graduation came.
I remember the day I decided to apply for college like it just happened last week. I’d been to the pub with some of my friends from school, and they were all talking about what they were planning on doing after university. I sat there, trying not to cry, as I thought about the retail job I hated and the universities I’d just been rejected from. College was never an option when I was at school, it just wasn’t the “done thing” and none of my teachers encouraged me to investigate their courses. I wish I’d known sooner because the college set up suited me so much better than my first attempt at university ever did.
College was a hard period of my life. The work itself wasn’t hard, and I’ve been studying a subject that I do genuinely enjoy learning about, but the workload was intense and a lot happened in my life whilst I was at college. My mental and physical health have both suffered over the past couple of years, I’ve lost childhood pets, said goodbye to old friendships, spent a year and a half doing long distance with my long-term boyfriend and most recently dealt with my dad being critically ill.
But I made it through the other side, stronger and more confident than I’ve ever been. It’s definitely been one of those “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” sort of scenarios, and I know that if I can make it through everything that’s happened recently then I can manage most things.

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And then here we are. I’m leaving with straight A grades in my HND, meaning that I’ve secured a place at my first choice of university, where I’ll be starting in third year in September. I’ll be studying Marketing at the University of the West of Scotland, with my plan being to eventually complete a masters in Digital Marketing at the same campus. I’ve realised now that my plans don’t always come to fruition, so we’ll see where this road takes me.

Secretly, although not so much now that I’m sharing it with the world, I’m absolutely terrified to be going back to university again. My first attempt just about broke me, and it’s taken me a really long time to realise that dropping out didn’t make me a failure. I’ve visited the campus I’ll be studying at and I’ve spoken to people who have finished the same degree I’m about to embark on in an attempt to quell my fears, but they still linger. From what I know so far it seems like it’ll be night and day in comparison to my old course, and I’m really excited by the modules on the programme, but the nerves are still there…

At the end of the day, I’ve dropped out once and I survived. I’m sure if I did really hate it it wouldn’t be the end of the world, I think I could get by. I’ll just buy myself some new stationery and then I’m sure the excitement will kick in after that!

So, here’s to the next chapter, I guess.