Colours and Carousels is FIVE!
I can’t believe that it’s been a whole five years since I sat down and penned my first ever blog post on here. It was awful, as all first posts should be, but little did I know that it would turn in to the blog I know and love today. Today felt like the perfect time to have a look back over how my blog has changed since the beginning and the impact it’s had on my life, as well as a quick look to the future too.
When I first started my blog I didn’t take it very seriously. I was heading in to fourth year of high school and spent the majority of my free time on the internet, so a blog seemed like a natural step for me. I loved writing and photography – although I hadn’t quite got the hang of it back then – and would spend hours reading other people’s attempts at blogging. I didn’t know much about the industry, I had no idea that people were given experiences or products in exchange for review and I certainly did not have a clue about how obsessed I would eventually become.
My blog wasn’t all too exciting for the first year or so, I wasn’t a very exciting person so in turn ended up mostly writing about my boring days at school or some clothes I wanted to buy. Not long after my blog would have turned two I ended up getting pretty ill and spend several months in and out of hospital. I blogged about this a bit, but on the whole I was really miserable and it totally knocked the tiny amount of confidence I did have. The next summer I ended up hooked on writing blog posts, sharing my new beauty buys and the clothes I wanted in my wardrobe.
Fast forward a few years later and we’re here. Never in a million years did I expect that anyone would want to read my writing, so I’m really damn grateful that people do. It took me over four years to reach my first thousand followers which is pretty slow going in comparison to other blogs, but it’s still something that blows my mind every single day. Every time someone comments on a post, sends me a tweet or even likes one of my photos on Instagram it gives me a little jolt of happiness.
This blog has helped me see myself in a better light. Before, I always felt like I was a second choice, and sometimes I still do, but now I feel like I’m actually worth something. I felt like my opinions were irrelevant and no one cared what I had to say, I was a shell of a person and constantly second guessing myself. I thought my value was determined by other people, but I couldn’t have been more wrong. I am the only person who gets a say in my value and I know for a fact that I am worthwhile.
I used to be quite a shy person and I still am, but Colours and Carousels has pushed me to try things out of my comfort zone. It’s given me a massive confidence boost which was very much needed and other people have actually noticed this. I feel like a completely new person compared to who I was just a couple of years ago. It sounds stupid, but I feel like I’ve actually found myself… *cringe*.
I don’t really know where I’d be without Colours and Carousels. I’ve met some incredible people who have become real rocks in my life, I’ve learned an exceedingly large variety of life skills and I’ve been lucky enough to have some incredible experiences also. This is the only hobby that I’ve actually stuck to for any length of time – apart from The Sims, if that counts – which is really saying something about how much I love it.